I think of y'all all the time, did you know that?
And this morning, a "release & gather" meditation felt like the most heartfelt offering. So I just hit record, let it flow, and now I'm sending it to you.
Why? Because this is what's been present for me and folks around me, and I thought it would be helpful for you.
Tuesday night, after asking for some support to help me let go of some unhelpful energetic baggage, I ended up leading a meditation on the topic for five other beautiful folks in my queer collective house.
Then last night, I held space for a friend struggling with the feelings of disgust she had at the internalized fatphobic, patriarchical thoughts impacting her experience relating to other people's eating habits. The shit that we don't even like to admit to ourselves that we're thinking, let alone others.
I listened. I validated that it comes from patriarchy.
I told her -- You're SO not alone in those thoughts, and it does not make you a bad person.
In fact, noticing them with compassion and critical consciousness is the first step to letting them go.
Unhelpful thinking that feels harmful to yourself and others is the worst. And it's not your fault. That's what happens just living in our culture, and typically without active, conscious letting go of these thought patterns they stay, quite persistently. They need conscious deprogramming. That is why I do what I do. That is why we need each other and support to be with the hard thoughts / feelings, and to chose to let them go.
I hope that this meditation can be useful in that endeavor.
It's 14.5 minutes, totally raw and uncut -- recorded from my meditation cushion just a half hour ago, straight to you.
Feel free to let me know what you think.